Drum Life .

OK, here we are . Yet another year ending & so much has happened . I must say honestly that 2008 has been the worst year of my life, no scratch that, 2nd worst year of my life . This year started off with a funeral ! I mean like literally after the year had began we had a funeral like a week later . It was my great-grandma on my fathers side . It was sad, but I mean I didn't know her like that . Then afterwards my family was basically told that our grandma (well my great-grandma) wasn't going to make to see the end of the year . We were told that there was no chance, and that she had fluid in her body & the cancer had gotten worse . We were all on edge for days . Though we were all hurt and afraid, my grandma wasn't . She was brave . She said that cancer doesn't have her, she has cancer and shes going to fight it . She did ! The cancer went away for a few months, its back but shes still fighting . As I began to say her is another year ending & my grandma is still here . . .

So, think that was it ? Wrong ! Just when I thought, hey my year can't get any worse, right . Well buckle your seat belts because that was just the tip of the iceberg . Let me take you to May 2008 . I'm finally 16 ! That should make me happy right, well nope . My mother & father had been (at the time) becoming more & more increasingly violent . They fought everyday, for half the time no reason . Mind you, they'd been together for 16 years . Since my birth, and have been literally fighting physically since . They had always had their little fight once in a while, but this had gotten out of hand . My main belief of this is because as my mother's life began to become more, idk, rich , my father's began to become tragic . His father was diagnosed with cancer, and he hadn't had a job in YEARS ! I mean when I say my moms life became more rich, I meant it . She had been told to be a comedian for years . She finally did it . She had her own comedy show & did stand-up . She had business partners and everything . One of her business partners was a wealthy comedian, whose name I forgot by now, who she worked with the most . My father had become more & more jealous . So finally the shit hit the fan ! My father came home from where, idk, & my moms business partner was here with his kids . He couldn't find a babysitter so his kids played with my little brother, while they talked business . Then they decided to go outside & watch the kids play for a minute . He began to play with the kids also & my father watched angrily calling him my moms new man . He noticed the tension and left . My father began to walk around the house mumbling "You got this nigga playin' wit my son & shit ." "You got you a nice lil family man, huh ?" My mom brushed him off, and ignored him . He grabbed a stack of my moms flyer's and ripped them up and began throwing chairs and things . My mom afraid of what he might do, had to sneak out the house & get help . He normally doesn't bother us, but tonight he was pissed . He hadn't hit me but he choked up my little brother who is mind you 10 and threw him into a wall & tossed him on his bed . It was a huge shock, I mean I was terrified . Normally if he had fought my mom I jumped in and got him off of her . For some reason I sat there, my mind went blank & I froze . Long story short, my daddy hit my mama, I fought dad, mom got a restraining order, dad ripped it up, fought mom again, mom shot dad, kids almost tooken . It was too much to type .

This year also had some good times . D'Andre FINALLY graduated, lol . I got a job . My moms starting her own grant writing business . Things are lookin' up towards the end of the year, hopefully we go into '09' with something good . I can't deal with no more bad .

" It's not hard living inside
of a drum ! "