"A pretty day makes a pretty picture . .

. . But fall in love and they're coming to get ya"

Skeleton Boy .

FAMILY ?? what's the true definition ? i mean, cuz i just can't fuckin' tell these days . i thought family was supposed to be understandin', and always there for you, and just a bunch of other bullshit i was brought up to believe . recently, my fave and i, have been noticing why my other fave doesn't fuck with family . THEY AIN'T SHIT !! or at least not mines . they talk about people behind they backs, they just FAKE AS FUCK . it's ok though, see cuz i got a year . ONE YEAR, then i'm 18 . i'm gone be out this family . not out the city, not out the house, no bitch i mean THE FAMILY . when i get older, i hope they don't want shit from me !!! i promise you, i hope they don't want shit from me ?! well anyways, life man . everytime i think it's goin' well, it starts gettin' all fucked up !!

"Should we even care at all ? ..
.. Lets shake hands and say goodbye ."

Violet Stars, Happy Hunting !

i hate love =/ .

it's very, idk, irresolute, for lack of a better word .

i mean everybody wants it, but when they get it, they only wind up hurt .

i know, i'm done with the shit .

"A pretty day makes a pretty picture . .

. . But fall in love and they're coming to get ya"

Supermassive Black Hole .

Life, life, life . What can I say ? ALOT ! Well, idk, I wanna say I'm content with my life right now, and I am, but only to a certain extent . Idk, I just feel like my life is good right now, but it can be better . I guess it just falls in place of the famous quote "It's your life . If you don't like it, change it ." Hmm, diggin' that quote right about now, lol .

"Glaciers meltin' in the dead of night ..

.. & all the superstars sucked into the supermassive"

Boats & Hoes .

Man, oh man . Life has had some ups and downs lately, whooo .

First off, me and relationships with people haven't been gettin' along . I think there's a purpose for that though, I believe it's a sign that I should work on myself before I mess with anybody else . Many people are too naive nowadays to realize that, but I did, so good for me, right ?! Things have been good, since I basically don't talk to people (anyone) anymore . It's like I feel free then a mug, but often bored, lol . I just workout now when I gett bored, which is a plus, haha . Well, idk why, but lately I just don't be feelin' like makin' long ass blogs, but I have sooo much shit to say, lol . This is all !

"Nachos, lemon heads, my dad's boat, you . .

. . wont go down 'cause my dick can float !"

Love, Sex, & Magic .

Alright, so lately life has been sooo fuckin' confusin' .

I mean like, seriously it's been wishy washy, lol .

One minute I love life, then the next minute I don't .

IDK, what it is, but hopefully it gets better soon !

I don't even know what to type right now, lol . I'm gone blog again tonight anyways, so . . .

"You touch is so magic to me . .

. . The strangest things can happen !"

Who Dat !

Fuck, fuck, fuck !
The damn ACT is comin' up ! I am determined to get a 31, or more .
This shit is going to be very hard !
Everybody told me that, it's gone be hard as fuck to get a damn 25, let alone a 31 .
I think I can do it, though . Hopefully, I can . Today is day 12 or 11 of my lent .
I gave up meat, pop, and hot cheetos this year . I'm doin' good, even though I kinda cheated, twice, don't say shit !
Lmao .


"Nigga WHO DAT ?!
Nigga WE DAT ! "

Pocketbook .

Roses are red,
Violets are blue .
You lied to me bitch,
I hate you !
Lol . Is it me, or does Valentines Day
bring out the bitterness in people, lmao .


"Eh, ya' body's nice, but I
think ya' need some Troy on it !"

Control Me .

I'm Fly As Hell, Swagger
Right . Brown Skin Poppin' Like
Dynamite . Raw Like China White .


"Remote control me, press the
buttons to turn me on,
please ! "

About A Girl (Unplugged) .

Lately, the word "relationship" has been lingerin' around . Well I want nothin' to do with it ! I swear the next "relationship" I'll be in, will be when I'm 40 . The past few have been the worst shits ever . Especially the most recent one, I mean we didn't even last a good 24 hours . I'm tired of gettin' lied to , ya' know . Check this though yo', I'm done !

"I'll take advantage while
You hang me out to dry !"

Never Too Far .

Oh my god . The past month has been ROCKY as fuck ! I mean it' s been filled with up's & down's already and it's only been a month ! To start it off, I got my report, had to quit my job, Barack Obama' inauguration (has nothing to do with me, but it happened), GRANDMA died ! This shit is hurtful . She died January 22, 2009 . That whole night & day was hard . I mean it finally happened . I didn't mean to sound happy, but it was hard for me, shit it was hard for everybody . It's like I know everybody has to die, but I NEVER thought I'd be going to her's . It was like . . I'm speechless as fuck . I mean it's still hard, because it feels like a dream . With this tragedy, people began to show their true colors . I mean Auntie Cynthia, Ma, Diane, and some others didn't even try to help . Auntie Vanessa, my mama, & Trish were strugglin' & hustlin' to get 6,000 dollars in a few days . It was hard, but their strong . Many unexpected people helped though, namely Josh, me, & Kelly . I only had 40 dollars, but it was somethin' ya' know . Kelly gave 1,000 DOLLARS ! She helped the most, if not for her, they'd probably be still struggling to pay everything . I also met a lot of family from outta town . Some from Las Vegas, Connecticut, etc . We're going to visit my great uncle William in Las Vegas . The man has a freakin' mansion ! Well this is all I'm going to type for now, because I am on punishment, and I'm sneakin' on the pc, lol .

"In the memories
there is solace "

Heartquake .

That's it . I got it ! I'm come to the conclusion on why things in my life normally tend to not go my way, or the way I plan it . It's because I'm a compulsive, smart-mouthed, arrogant, egotistical, argumentative asshole . I mean I'm not shootin' myself down or anything, but the simple fact is that I know I have problems . Most people claim that they don't have problems, at least I know the harsh reality of myself . I tend to push people away, and when I pushed them away to the point of no return, that's when I want them . That's when I become clingy and it's dumb . Idk why I do that, but i do . I figure since it's a new year though I can try to change that about myself, ya' know ?

"Love was a stranger,
never at my door . . "

IFULEAVE .

That's it . I started off the new year alone, and I think I will end up alone for the whole year . As I said before, I feel like everything happens for a reason . So look, I have had 3 opportunities for love & for some reason something always happens and fucks it up . Honestly I fuck it up, I don't know if I do it on purpose or if I'm just slow, idk . It's like I don't mind bein' single, shits fun, but at the same time I haven't been in a relationship since the summer '08' in August, so I think it's time for a new one ya' know . It's hard to explain and too much to type if I could explain what happened and how I sabotaged my chances . Just know that I think I might have fucked myself over, AGAIN !!!

"You think I can be
so arrogant, arrogant! "

Ego .

Alright so the last few days I have been going to work I have been messin' up . I mean on the verge of bein' fired !!!!! Nigga, clocked out forever ! Lol . I haven't really been focused, I mean I been really not focusin' ! So the last time I went to work and didn't get in trouble or nothing . I did exceptionally well . So I might be able to become an assistant manager . Also I am about to get a new phone, I am sooo happy ! I'm currently typin' this at school in the library with Danla'shell & Ra'Shanda, man we been having so much fun today in school .

"Talk like this cuz'

I can back it up ! "

Street Lights .

That's fuckin' it ! I had enough of this shit . Next motherfucka' call me fake, I'm gone show you how fake a person can get . People keep claimin' that I'm fake . I ask, how ? They say you don't call me nomore, you don't come see me & shit like that . First off, motherfucka' it's not fake if I have shit to do . I mean are you going to catch my credits up & make sure I graduate on time for me ? NOO ! Are you going to juggle school & a constant schedule change from my job for me ? NOO ! Are you going to do anything for me ? NOO, and for that matter what are you doing for me now that I should just stop every fuckin' thing in my life to talk to you ! I mean your sooooo fuckin' important ! Hm, nothing !

I mean and last time I checked ain't none of you bitches knockin' down doors to talk to me & come see me and shit . You got my number just as well as I got yours, and for that matter if you really pay some fuckin' attention . I have barely had a phone lately . I mean I had 3 phones in the 4 months, sorry for the fuckin' inconvenience . I mean I didin't mean to lose my phone & not be able to talk to you all, sorry ! I mean truly, NOT !!! Wtf ?! I mean you got my adress too, last I checked . Shit's crazy . I mean I am like the realest nigga you will know, and I'm fake because of that . I thought fake was shit like when niggas act different towards you when certain people around, not when you can barely talk to someone because they be busy, I mean damn I thought that was called takin' care of business . Maybe I'm wrong, and to be on the other side of things . Since you quick to jump down my throat about how fake I am, did you happen to know whte shit I had went through this past year ? Did you happen to find out how I was almost put in foster care, almost lost my dad, and almost had my mama in jail for life, worried about how my grandma & if she going to make to another day, or if my Grandpa is going to make to another holiday, NOOOO ! All you were worried about was that i couldn't talk to you ! Well here you go, I hope this is enough talkin' for you, because this all the talkin' we gone do this year, at least until you get YOUR priorities straight, and realize I ain't finna' stop my life for you !

" I know my
destination ! "

Shake It .

Alright, today was the frist day of the new year . Weird thing happened, I saw the girl I used to love today . I mean I haven't seen her since like October, I mean we haven't even talked & in walks the ex love of my life, lol . I mean most of ya'll probably would write it off as just, oh she came over, but I believe everything happens for a reason, and be it natural or supernatural, I take that as a sign . Should I be with her this year, should we try again (god know the first time was terrible) , but idk . I'm a lil confused, I mean I still love her, & I wouldn't mind bein' with her again, but idk . Should we try it ? On one hand, I want to, but on the other I mean we did break up for a reason . Ugh, I'm sooo confused .

"Your body's cold, but girl we're
getting so warm . "