Heartquake .

That's it . I got it ! I'm come to the conclusion on why things in my life normally tend to not go my way, or the way I plan it . It's because I'm a compulsive, smart-mouthed, arrogant, egotistical, argumentative asshole . I mean I'm not shootin' myself down or anything, but the simple fact is that I know I have problems . Most people claim that they don't have problems, at least I know the harsh reality of myself . I tend to push people away, and when I pushed them away to the point of no return, that's when I want them . That's when I become clingy and it's dumb . Idk why I do that, but i do . I figure since it's a new year though I can try to change that about myself, ya' know ?

"Love was a stranger,
never at my door . . "